Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

I started a new job 6 weeks ago. Along with my new job came new health insurance. Health insurance that my OB doesn’t accept.  I figured that I would just stay with the practice and deal with the out-of-network charges.  My husband told me a few times that he didn’t think I had out-of-network coverage.  I kept dismissing him.  Today I actually called the insurance company and my husband was right (I HATE when he is right and he is right all.the.time), I don’t have out-of-network coverage.

As I hung up the phone, I was practically in tears.  I need to break up with my OB.  I asked for OB recommendations on Twitter and got almost a dozen responses.  One practice in particular was recommended 4 or 5 times, so I will likely switch to that practice, but I can’t help but feel sad.  These are the doctors that delivered my babies.  They cared for me during all the scares I had in the first trimester of my pregnancies with both boys, through my miscarriage, through my scheduled c-section when Jack turned breech 5 days before my due date and were amazingly supportive of my VBAC attempt (which is a story for another time, but let’s just say they did everything under the sun to try to avoid another c-section).  After all of that and more, I am emotionally attached.  I’m dreading the call I need to make tomorrow morning.  The one where I will need to cancel my appointment and ask them to transfer my records to a new doctor.

I have no idea if these feelings are normal, but it’s hard to leave.  How could it not be?  These people helped me bring these two beautiful boys into the world.

Jack 10/2/2008

Xander 9/23/10

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